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INSPIRATION BEHIND THE NAME OF THE BLOG


When an artist decides to make a painting, he "conceives" a picture. He then takes out the canvas, brushes and paint. After getting out all he may need, the artist starts picking out the colours and brushes he wants to use...then; he begins! Now, somewhere during the process of this painting he comes to the point where he decides to use a very fine brush to put in the some detail on the painting, but for some reason that brush just does not want to work...and having to finish the painting, the artist chooses another brush which even though it is not as fine (able) as the previous brush becomes a skilful wand in the hands of the artist, not due to the capabilities of the brush...no, due to the willingness!

Mat 22:14 for many are called, but few are chosen...

I believe this scripture does not refer to God having favourites and therefore does not want to choose some, but rather because some are consistently refusing God's grace and love to shape and mold their hearts.

Do you realize just how much God loves you...? He created the universe with words, yet He took the time to mold, shape and create you...this has to make you wonder; who is this God that thought of me before the foundation of the earth and if He thought of me, that must mean that I am worth so much in His hands...?


LIFE AND LIFE IN ABUNDANCE! Part 1

WE SERVE A LIVING GOD, 
THEREFORE WE NOT ONLY HAVE THE PRIVILEGE OF LIVING BUT HAVING LIFE IN ABUNDANCE

PART 1

Testimony

At the age of  five I had rhythmic fever which if not treated in time can affect either your muscles and joints or or it can affect your heart.  As soon as my parents noticed that I had fever they took me to the doctor, but unfortunately the doctor just sent my parents home giving them a prescription for allot of Stopayne syrup saying that they should give me the Stopayne and just put me into a bath filled with cold water and ice because the cold water will break my fever, but what the doctor did not realize was that this wasn't just any fever this was rhythmic fever.  So as soon as we arrived home my parents did as the doctor said but by the time the fever broke it was too late, the fever had already affected my heart and when I got my permanent teeth we discovered that the high fever affected my teeth which resulted in me having yellow teeth. 

As the years went by I would grew weaker and weaker and every time we went to a mall or somewhere that required walking I would always be tired and lightheaded, so I almost always asked my dad to carry me or put me into the supermarket trolley so that I do not have to walk, which started to irritate my dad because I wasn't 5 years old anymore, I was 7 about to turn eight years old and obviously I was big enough to walk and because no one knew what was going on at that time it seemed like I was too lazy to walk. 

In December 1993 we went on vacation and stayed at my aunt who was a nurse at that time. My aunt told my parents that they should take me to the doctor because I have Anemia. Early in 1994 (I turned 8 that year) we went to the doctor and as I walked into the doctor's office, the doctor confirmed to my parents that I have Anemia and immediately referred me to a children specialist. My parents took me to go and see the specialist and as soon as I walked into the specialist office he booked me into the hospital. The specialist said to my parents that the Anemia that I have is caused by my heart dysfunction ..he explained that not only is one of my heart valves dysfunctional but my heart is also the size of a "rugby" ball and there is "hole in my heart". At that time the specialist explained that my heart condition is so critical that I was not to eat (anything containing sugar etc. sweets,  chocolate, fruits), walk or laugh excessively because the slightest increase of heartbeats will result in me having a heart attack. 

I stayed in the hospital for about two months, which caused me to not only miss out on school work but it also caused me to miss out on sports and connecting with friends and the times when I was fortunate to make it to school that year, I was made fun of by the children, they were saying that my teeth were yellow because I do not brush them. You can now see that because of one mistake I was not only suffering physically but emotionally as well. It was not that I did not have any friends, but they were hard to come by and even when I did have friends who understood my situation  there were still those who did not understand and as you and I both know it takes about 40 compliments to replace one insult.

After about spending two months in the hospital I went home but still had to take a lot of medicine (about 14 pills a day) and every 3 weeks I had to go to the doctor to get a Penicillin injection which the doctor said I would have to keep on getting for the rest of my life. At the age of about 10 I said to my dad that I can not take the injection anymore because almost every time that we go for the injection I end up getting four injections instead of one due to the nurses not doing it correctly and that led to me being in tears every time and a buttocks that hurt really bad! My dad agreed that I could go over to using the pills, but stated very clearly that it is crucial that I take the pills as the doctor prescribed it.

It was at that time that I heard the Lord (which I at that time did not realize that it was Him speaking to me but non the less, this is what I heard/felt) say to me "Denise, I sustain you and I am going to heal your heart", although I believed that I am healed because God said so, I did not have the courage at that time to tell my parents what I had felt the Lord said to me and as a result of that I would throw all the pills that my father gave me to drink down the toilet. I started to get better over the years even though I did not drink any pills anymore, but there was still some times that I had heart cramps as well as pass outs. At the age of 18 the Lord said to me "Denise I can not heal you in a lie, because I won't get the glory then?", so...I went to my parents and I told them what the Lord told me when I was 10 years old, but that He could not heal me in a lie. I also told them that I did not drink the pills that he gave me all these years, but instead I threw them down the toilet. After telling my parents the truth, my father said to me that we should go to the doctor for a heart scan cause surely if God healed me it will show on the scan, but I explained to my father what the Lord said to me: "Denise, I do not want you to look at the heart scan...I want you to trust me. As long as you keep your eyes on me and not on that scan, your life will be a testimony of my healing and restoring power bringing not only healing and restoration in your heart and soul but in your spirit as well."

Now, like I said earlier...according to the doctors I would have had to drink the pills for the rest of my life and they said "it is crucial that I remember to drink every single pill as prescribed or I will suffer fatal consequences". The doctor also said that before age of 18, I would have to get open heart surgery as well as that I would have to get children before the age of 21 otherwise I would have to get more than one open heart surgery because in order for me to get children I could not get the steel valve because with the steel valve you need to drink pills to keep it from rusting and those pills can cause a fetus to deform. I was also told that I would not be able to give birth naturally as my heart will not make it. According to the doctor, I would also never have been able to do extreme sports because of my heart condition as the exercise of such sports will lead to a heart attack.

But I am happy to testify today that not only have I never had a heart surgery but I have led a happy life full of fun and excitement. Up to date I have done bungee jumping and gorge swinging and I love anything that gets my adrenaline going and I am trusting God for the safe delivery of our children as we are trusting God for children in the future.

I thank God for keeping my heart in His hands, for I know that as long as my heart is in His hands it is in capable hands and my life up to date testifies of the healing power of our Living God.

Never allow the troubles of this word to get bigger than the God who created you!

1 John 5:4Amplified Bible (AMP) 

For everyone born of God is victorious and overcomes the world; and this is the victory that has conquered and overcome the world—our [continuing, persistent] faith [in Jesus the Son of God].


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