HE IS ENOUGH

For those of you who read my article in the 28th edition of Lady Rose Magazine, you would have read my testimony on the covenant God made with me in 2009. A moment birthed out of curiosity became a journey of unconditional love. In that moment, He spoke three promises to my heart, and at the time, I held on to those words as promises. But over time, through revelation and walking closely with Him, I began to understand that this was not merely a promise. This was a covenant, and covenant carries a weight that promises alone cannot bear. Covenant is not just about receiving… it is about giving back. It is about dying to self so that His life may be formed in us. For it is only through dying with Christ that we are raised with Him. It is only through covenant returned that the covenant matures. It is only in the fear of the Lord that we begin to fully comprehend the glory we have been invited to walk in.

We have now lived in Oudtshoorn for over four years, surrounded by aloes all around, and yet, I had never seen them the way I saw them this year. Since the beginning of this year, the aloe plant has stood out for me, and even though I have seen the aloe plant many times, it has never caught my attention the way it has this year. Every time I look at one and see the burst of colours, it stirs something in my heart that fills me with inspiration to the point that I feel the urge to create and want to make a painting of the aloe plant. This caused me to ask the Lord, why? Why is the aloe plant standing out to me in this way, and what is it that He wants to say to me?

Then, about a month and a half ago, we visited friends of ours. During our time together, my friend began to share how the Lord had spoken to her about the aloe and how He revealed to her that the aloe represents contentment. As she spoke those words, something settled in my spirit. In a moment, I received revelation from the Lord of something that had been calling me deeper throughout the years. Although the Spirit of the Lord has been sharing with me that He is all I need, this is knowledge that many children of God have. Few have insight, and even fewer have revelation thereof. I now need to admit that although I have greater revelation than I have had over the years, I still feel in my spirit, as I am writing this, that I do not yet comprehend the depth of the revelation, nor the weight that it carries, and the power it holds if it truly becomes THE TRUTH in which I abide.

However, I can say that in that moment, I realised the Lord had been inviting me once again to go deeper, and this got me very excited, as it wasn’t something new but it was deeper. As the Word says, deep calls unto deep and that is exactly what this has been. A deeper unfolding of the covenant He spoke years ago. He never changes His mind but He always calls us closer to understand Him more fully and He has been teaching me contentment, not the kind that makes you numb or passive but a holy, reverent, Spirit born contentment that rests in the heart of God no matter what season you find yourself in.

Although I’ve gone through many phases of this covenant relationship… times of faith, times of pain, times of waiting, times of joy, I found myself last year in a moment of deep vulnerability before the Lord. I came before Him with my heart laid bare and naked, crying out with a torn spirit. Because part of me, the son of God within me, holds firm to His Word. I know His promises are yes and amen. I know if He has said it, then it will be, and so I long for it, seek it, and wait expectantly for it, because He cannot lie and He does not forget.

There is another part of me, the bondservant who stands in quiet reverence and awe. A heart so deeply thankful for all that He has already done. A soul who does not dare to demand more,

because the weight of His grace in my life already feels like more than I deserve. He has healed. He has restored. He has revealed His love in ways that have transformed me from the inside out. When I look back at the mountain of testimonies I stand on, I feel like to ask for more would be selfish. Yet, both these parts of me exist in tension, both born of intimacy and relationship, and in that tension, I found myself crying out, “Lord, I feel torn.”

It took me back to that day in 2009. I was lying on my bed, doing Bible study, when I began to read the story of Hannah. Her heart touched mine, how she sought God for a child and how once He gave her what she longed for, she returned her gift to Him in worship. Not out of loss. Not out of sacrifice but out of deep gratitude. That moment captured my heart and caused me to ask the Lord, “But God, how would I, in this day and age, offer my child to You like Hannah did?”

He asked me a simple question, “What have I called you?”

I replied, “A prophet.”

He said, “Then that is how you will offer your child to Me. You will raise your child to hear My voice, just as you do.”

After that, I stood up from the bed, and He spoke clearly, unmistakably:

“You will be wealthy.”

“I will give you a home.”

“You will have a child.”

This is where the aloe speaks to me again. The aloe grows in dry places. It stands in harsh sun. It does not ask for more, yet it contains healing within. Its roots go deep. It thrives where other plants perish. In that, the Lord has been showing me, this is contentment. A life that does not demand but remains. A life that does not waver when rain delays. A life that carries healing in hidden places and blossoms in the wilderness. A life that gives back not because it has to, but because it wants to.

We recently watched Season 5 of The Chosen, and one particular theme stirred me to tears. The phrase echoed over and over, “It would have been enough.” As I heard those words, they resonated so deeply with what the Lord has been doing in my heart. It would have been enough if He had just saved me. It would have been enough if He had just restored me. It would have been enough if all He gave me was His presence. Yet, He gives more. He gives fully. However, to have Him, truly have Him, is more than enough.

This is the truth we must learn to carry with weight and wonder. The heart of contentment is not passive. It is worship. It is trust. It is maturity. It is saying, “Even if I never see the fulfilment of what I long for, I still know You are enough.” Because in Him we move and breathe and have our being. He is our portion. He is our prize. In Him is all we would ever need.

Returning to Hannah, I saw something I had never fully understood before. When she offered Samuel to God, it was not out of sacrifice or sorrow. It was worship born of thankfulness. In response to her offering, God blessed her with five more children. Five, signifying grace. When we offer to God in thankfulness, not demanding but delighting in His goodness, He multiplies. He increases. He adds. Grace upon grace. That is the heart of our Father.

So here I am. Still waiting. Still believing. Still trusting but also content. Not because I have received all that I desire but because I know the One who holds all things. The aloe continues to stand tall around me, not just in the soil of the land, but in the soil of my spirit. It has become a prophetic picture of what it means to be rooted, healed, and whole in the waiting.

I firmly believe that God is calling me to a depth where Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego were, a depth I believe we as followers of Christ should follow Him in. That is to say that I know, My God, that You can, but even if You do not, I will not bow to my own will. I completely surrender my will to Yours, for I trust You wholly and completely to the point that I will deny myself for Your sake. I have a revelation that God makes all things work together for the good for those who seek Him wholeheartedly and are called according to His Word and for His purpose.

I pray that we may be a people that do not just seek Him for what He can give but rather for who He is. In doing so, may we become fully submerged in His faith, hope, and love so that we may become it to all of those around us.

He is enough. He always was. He always will be. Let that be our testimony, our posture, and our worship.

Amen.

If this message has stirred something in your heart, I invite you to read my article in the Lady Rose Magazine, Edition #29, where this very word — He Is Enough — was also featured. There, you’ll find not only my full article but also many other beautiful and faith-filled writings that speak of God’s love, hope, and truth. May it continue to encourage and remind you that truly, He is enough.

Edition 29 of Lady Rose Magazine